I’m refined insanity
I’m catastrophe-
I’m the latest book to read

I am squirming mercilessly
And I am pinned
To “wait patiently”

I ripped my veins out
I hurt my soul
In order to be here
Which is nowhere at all

I screamed profanities
I prayed
I BEGGED
But God didn’t answer me
It was like he was dead.

I can’t keep feeling this-
Worthless accomplishment
I gave my EVERYTHING
To be pinned and waiting.